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Sat, 28 Nov 2009 19:45:59 GMT

May 3 lineup

(artists listed from earliest to latest time sets)

Photo Finish Pep Rally:
Parade Gathering, Parade March, Reverand Ryan, Pop Pop Pontiff, Say Anything, DJ Prime/Reverand Ryan
Asbury Park Stage:
Can You Keep A Secret, Cute Is What We Aim For, Story of the Year, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Less Than Jake, Pepper, Chiodos, Jack's Mannequin, Paramore, Snoop Dogg
Nowwhat.com Stage:
Trust, Secondhand Serenade, Metro Station, Streetlight Manifesto, Armor for Sleep, Mindless Self Indulgence, Tokio Hotel, Saves The Day, The Bravery, Jimmy Eat World
Nokia Ticket Rush Stage:
A Rocket to the Moon, Single File, Playradioplay, Vinnie Caruana of The Movielife, Hit the Lights, MxPx, Set Your Goals, Alien Ant Farm, Fiction Plane, I Set My Friends on Fire
Rebel Youth Records Stage:
Holiday Parade, Dear and the Headlights, Lydia, The Maine, Snake Milk, Family Force 5, The Rocket Summer, Valencia, Men, Women & Children, Sing it Loud
MLB Stage:
Our Last Night, Josephine Collective, A Skylit Drive, Sky Eats Airplane, Breathe Carolina, The Audition, The Chariot, Kill Hannah, The Devil Wears Prada, Jeffree Star
The 5 Gum Stage:
Mychildren Mybride, The Sleeping featuring Sebastian Bach, Aiden, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster, Drop Dead, Gorgeous, Blessthefall, A Day to Remember, From First to Last, The Birthday Massacre, Alesana
Bamboozle TV Studio:
Studio Introductions, Mansions, Phil Bensen (acoustic), Anthony Raneri, Neil Rubenstein, Sound and Fury, The Pink Spiders featuring Rotten Cotton, As Tall as Lions, Bret Williams, Madina Lake, Nore Davis, Josh Spear, Blake, Zack Weber, Neil Rubenstein, Eric Riviera, Streetlight Manifesto, Let Me Run
Linc Star Records Break Stage:
The Cast Before The Break, A Love Like Pi, Barry & The Penetrators, Van Atta High, Sparkys Flaw, Krista, The Riverwinds, The Black Clouds, Gonna Get Got, Red 13, Del Jugo, Kenotia
The Aquarian Stage:
Takota, Farewell, Every Avenue, Schoolyard Heroes, The Morning Of, Dr. Manhattan, Ludo, The Eternal Affect, Zox, Treaty of Paris, God or Julie

[edit] May 4 lineup

(artists from earliest to latest time sets)

Asbury Park Stage:
The Maine, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Cobra Starship, Circa Survive, Anti-Flag, The Bouncing Souls, Bret Michaels, Motion City Soundtrack, Gym Class Heroes, Panic At The Disco
Nowwhat.com Stage:
Finch, All Time Low, The Academy Is..., Say Anything, The Starting Line, Senses Fail, Thrice, The Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Coheed And Cambria
Nokia Ticket Rush Stage:
Automatic Loveletter, My American Heart, Four Year Strong, As Tall as Lions, I Am The Avalanche, Envy on the Coast, And Then There Were Machines, The Hush Sound
Rebel Youth Records Stage:
The Banner, Foxy Shazam, Danger Radio, Forever The Sickest Kids, We the Kings, The Fall of Troy, The Receiving End of Sirens, Every Time I Die, Emmure
MLB Stage:
A Midnight Tragedy, Between the Trees, The Secret Handshake, The Dear Hunter, 3OH!3, Mayday Parade, Sound and Fury, Phantom Planet, Just Surrender, The Color Fred
The 5 Gum Stage:
The Blackout!, Paper Rival, The White Tie Affair, Tyga, Charlotte Sometimes, Street Dogs, Alien Ant Farm, The Cab, Inspecter 7
Bamboozle TV Studio:
Trust, The Urgency, The Protomen, Stories of the Ripper, Patent Pending, Pete Isip, Dustin Chafin, Hip Hop Karaoke, Triumph the Insult Comic Dog, Anthony Green, Triumph the Insult Comic Dog, Josh Spear, Greg Stone, Black Gold, Triumph the Insult Comic Dog, Thomas Dale, Can You Keep A Secret, The Photo Atlas
Linc Star Records Break Stage:
A Man's All, One Brick Down, End of an Era, Racing Kites, The Sleeping Revolt, The Thief, The Molotov Cocktails, Reverse Order, Brighten, Liam and Me, Strike
The Aquarian Stage:
The Casting Out, The Attack, The Morning Light, You Me and Everyone We Know, Article A, Greeley Estates, Sound the Alarm, David Costa, Good Old War, Innerpartysystem, October Skyline

young...

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 02:31:19 GMT

I've been so caught up in my tumblr (sickofthisscene.tumblr.co) that I have been neglecting this almost completely :(
Only two things worth blogging about:

1. My mom and I drove half of Escape the Fate to a costume store so I could get into their Halloween show.
2. I dyed my hair brown/black.

Wait, what was that?

Yes. Craig Mabbitt & Monte Money (and Monte's brother, Michael) were in the back of my car. Definitely the best day of my whole life.
It's such a long story & I don't feel like explaining it AGAIN.
But this is who I have to thank for making it possible:

Maxx for messing up my ticket.
David for giving us the address to the costume store.
Mom for taking me to the concert way early to buy a ticket from someone (or attempt to) and for giving Craig and company a ride.
Craig Mabbitt for giving me the best night of my life with just a simple phone call.
Rodney for protecting me in the pit & giving me the ETF shirt he bought.
Sage for not leaving me alone while Maxx, David & Rod went in the pits.

word. <3

<3

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 00:55:47 GMT

Brian Dales <3 :D [the summer set]

Topher Talley <3 [the bigger lights]

Stephen Gomez <3 [the summer set]

Brian Hannon <3 [victory in numbers]

Chae Hawk <3 [announcer]

Jimmie <3 [every avenue]

Bruce <3 [victory in numbers]

Dave <3 [every avenue]

Pete!! <3 [runner runner]

These guys are part of what keeps my world spinning.

the boys you do (get back at you)...

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 18:30:59 GMT

I saw The Summer Set last night with THIS PROVIDENCE, CARTEL & The Bigger Lights.
I ended up buying The Summer Set's CD for this song & 'Young'. I'm not a huge fan,
Although Brian Dales is quite attractive ;) his girlfriend is on JONAS. Stella.
Yeah, I thought it was kind of random, but then I saw that she was from Phoenix, so that's not really random at all.
I heard you're talking shit again, I'm gonna sleep with all your friends ;D
- best line in this whole song.

The rest of TSS isn't so attractive, Idk why everyone thinks that.

CARTEL was the best! I was so impressed at how good they were.
I was next to the barricade for This Prov & the beginning of Cartel, which was exciting until my friend wanted to leave :(
We went and bought stuff (Summer Set CD- $10, Cartel Tshirt- $20)
The Bigger Lights was amazing as always, Topher remembered us from the July show.
We said hey and he's like "Hey! You two look familiar...." Hahah he's a cool kid. I missed him.
& their "new" player, I forget his name, but he's really sweet too.
I came over to ask him a question about This Prov's random guitarist and I was like "You were real good," He was like "COME HEREE!" He hugged me and told me thank you ahaha, Band boys crack me up.

And then there was Brian Dales.
We had matching bracelets.
I saw his 'TO <3 AND BACK" This Century/Jac Vanek bracelet & I was like "Hey I have that," "Really?" & I showed him he was like "Awesome!!!" And he is so adorable.

DAN YOUNG IS MARRIED?
He has the ring tattooed on his finger and I was like "Oh, Is that a tattoo? That's awesome"
Then somehow it came out that he is married. I was like... huh!?!! Austrialian Sex, say whaaat?
That's what I've called him since July. It's the truth, man.

I never recapped the EVERY AVENUE SHOWW.
I, again, was next to the barricade. Much fun that was.
I "caught" a Stereo Skyline guitar pick.
I saw PETE FROM RUNNER RUNNER & He sort of remembered us from last December when they played with All Time Low.
I saw Victory In Numbers. Brian Hannon, their guitarist/backup vocalist is my new best friend.
He is an amazing singer. & He kind of forgot my name :P NOT Emily!!!
But he's still awesome. & Bruce is spicy like Nick Jonas. Like freal they kind of look alike.
EVERY AVE; Amazing as always <3
We only got to talk to Jimmie & Dave. We did get pix with Josh, though!!!
The White Tie Affair puts on a very good show. I'm not really a fan, but they were really into it and stuff.

Saturday night was very eventful to say the least..
My friend was drunk and we had to take care of her. We needed to get her home.
Now, we don't drive. So we ended up calling her family friend who is a Junior (& in my Spanish class, so that's awkward)
But it was actually really fun.
Hahah :D

We're never gonna be as young as we are tonight <3
~briandales,man.

Tonight I'm gonna blog with the picture of me/briandales. and the rest of them? we'll see. I'll def put the GOOD pictures on ;)

it still remains...

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 15:48:41 GMT

This song is awesome.
It makes me even more excited for Sundayy ;D

So remember a while back when I said everytime I told someone about something happening (or liking someone)
it turns out bad? Either the person stops doing what they are doing or they turn out to be an asshole?
Well I'm keeping it a secret freal this time. Idk if I actually like anyone, but I'm not going to tell anyone about that kid.
The one who stared at me in gym & study hall. I think he's cute... Idk. maybe I'm just crazy :\

I SHOULD be doing English work... but I'm not.

Song change; Retrograde by CARTEL <3
It's pretty good as well, but I like It Still Remains more, I think ?

I'm still stressing for the concert tonight.
and about the whole dilemma with cuteness of guys.
There's another cute guy... that's all I am going to say now because he might read this and yeah.
He's really nice & we're friends hahahaa.

Now listening to; Bro Hymn by Pennywise.
That song is absolutely inspiring.
"Life is the most precious thing you can lose." I love that. Amazing.
It's over though. I'm multitasking, not just writing this haha.
the Bro Hymn music video just came out (the Live version) I like this one a little betttterr.
But I changed it cause the teacher was sneaking peeks. Now playing; Bones Shatter by Hedley.

I'm sort of cold. Shit there is advisory today, we were supposed to have a party hahaha. WHOOPS.
eoinoweinroenfo I don't want to do work :(
Not that I have to, we have a sub in Blasian and we are just basically having a study hall.
So I guess this should be called Study Hall 4.. oh well ;P

BTW; Blasian= Black(African) + Asian ;)

STILL FLY by TDWP.
Yes, I am still fly.
Duuuh.
My tummy is sore. Like hxc sore.
Yes I have a hxc tummy.
You jel, you jel! Get over yourself :P
I use a lot of emoticons.... like almost tooooo many.
I'm still waiting for Nice Katie from Fearless to email me back, dammit. I might cry :'(
WAAAHOO, another emoticon !
My bio teacher is insane.
Like freal, he's cooooky. That's a word he would use, too.
He's like "Look at this here groovy ruler" or whatever he's talking about.
He's totally southern. I thought he was gay, but he is married so probs not.
He said "Tough noodles" & "up the creek without a paddle" and we did an experiment with "A Little Sexy" which is a perfume ahahaha.
The other day he showed us a video of him pretending to be a kangaroo, I lol-ed.
People think he's so funny, idk why... He's really not that funny.
I just love how he says cool words. The funniest thing was the kangaroo.

FAVORITE SONG; Life of the Party by ARTTM <3
I made a stop motion with this song. Watch it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=usN_GEAtNSQ
It's like 12 seconds and really amateur but whateeevvvs ;)
I also made one with Love Addict by Family Force 5. Go to my channel and watch it !

Animals by Nickelback, now playing.
I heard this song in my friend's car. Well his mom's boyfriend's car. My friend, Maxx :D
I love Maxx, he is taking me to Escape the Fate, he got me a ticketttt for freeee.
Like I'm ecstatic, he gets free tickets all the time. It's amazing !
I remember the first time I heard this song, like freal.
I was in the car with Maxx, Taylor(his sister), Aaron & Colin (and Mike, the boyfriend of course).
We were going to see the Taking of Pelham 123 and Maxx told me "Listen to these lyrics"
I listened.. Hahah I never really understood them until recently.

All Downhill From Here / New Found Glory ;D
I have a story about this one too.
I barely remember it, but like 4 years ago... I think?
I went to this camp and signed up to do radio,
which was basically a wooden room that had speakers that you could hear for like a mile or something.. Idk something crazy like that..
and this kid was listening to this song, or he wanted to play it, and idk he was being rude to me or something?
I think he was calling me a teenybopper without using that word but I can't say fersure. I thought he was hot though...ahahhaha

I'm youtubing now.
I'm gonna end this entry, I'm way too distracted.

baby blue eyes...

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 13:21:36 GMT

Okay so this is a tad late.
However, I finished all of my work really early :D
There is like a little more than 10 minutes left in the set.
I have a Spanish quiz next... FUN.
It's on regular and irregular conjugations & w/ reflexives. Uggghghghgh

close your baby blue eeeeyesss.
I HAVE to go to the Valencia show on Nov 22 with The Maine, VersaEmerge & ARTTM!
It's gonna be amazing. Valencia & ARTTM? What more could I ask for?
The Maine is just a plus. & I'm hoping there wont be as many teenies there...
Since the night before (nov 21) is BLG, The Maine, Cobra Starship, ARTTM & Versa Emerge.
I'm hoping they wont find out about the Valencia show, we need to keep it secret.
& if they do go, they most likely won't know Valencia even though they are from the teenies' own freaking hometown..
WAAAHOOOO! I'm listening to JoeK again ;) The Follow Through should tour with Tyler Brown Williams & The Ready Set.
Possibly StephenJ or ChrisD? T'would be bunches of fun.

@ the show tonight, look for me :D (if anyone reads this)
I'll look like a bumblebee in my yellow&black plaid shirt and my black legging-pants. I'll be going up and down the line asking you to sign up for fearless shit. & PASSING OUT STICKERS! I decided that I will give the nicest person an Every Avenue poster ;) People can be rude, and I hate rude people at shows, unless they are teenies (which they usually are), in which case I could care less. I'll just skip them. <3

¡STAAAAY BRUUUUUTAL!

only you...

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 12:08:31 GMT

Ugh. I don't want to do my science thing...
I should have done it last night :\
To get half my points back on my properties of water test, i have to take a 10 question quiz and then copy down the answers (x amount of times) according to the score I received on my original test.
I got a 92.5, which is a low A, but I want to get my total grade up and if I do this, I will get about a 96, so that would help I think.

I feel like I'm going to have like a heart attack or something tonight...
I KNOW I'm going to forget SOMETHING.
CHECK LIST FOR THE EVERY AVENUE SHOW:
*Camera
*Sharpies/Pens
*Posters
*Stickers (Every Avenue & Paramore)
*Sign up sheets for Fearless mobile mob/email newsletter
*Car letters
Did I mention camera?

grungfuonrfom I would be the one to forget my camera.. like really.
I need that. Without my camera, I could get kicked off the street team. That would SUCK.
& I thought it felt good after I sent my pre-show stuff in last week and Katie sent me an email saying that I was on the list..
Now I'm freaking outtt. BTW; Katie is the NICE streat team leader. She's my favorite.
Fearless has the nicest people. I would cry if I got kicked out, freal.

I'm listening to Joe K ;)
I commented him on myspace last night all like, no offense(i love Tarcy & everything) but why aren't you the lead singer of avp?

My wrist is dying, I'm on question 7. I only have to rewrite each one twice since I have a score in the 90's..
Listening to I Woke Up In a Car by Something Corporate, I like it :)
GET THE NEW CARTEL ALBUM, I BOUGHT IT.
I love it so much. It Still Remains is my favorite at the moment. GET ITT!!!!!!!!
k well I gtg work on my Bio thing...
& I will probably post another entry after this set, since I have info tech & I have my chargerrrrr ;)

STAAAYYY BR00TAL ;) & Shine On.

head on collison...

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 18:37:56 GMT

This song inspired ALL TIME LOW's name.
Everyone should know that already..

I watched In Person (The Maine's documentary) during study hall 3 today :)
It made me miss the old days when no one really new them...
I remember the first time I saw them with Boys Like Girls, Metro Gaytion & Good Charlotte.
Everyone put on a good show (minus mmmmgay.) especially The Maine.
I remember it so specifically, close to NO ONE was singing along with The Maine.
I was in the back-middle and singing along as loudly as I could..some people were giving me looks.
That was the first and only time I saw them where I didn't end up leaving in the middle of their set because of the
stupid teenies rubbing against me.. :'(
Just two months after that show I saw them with All Time Low & Mayday Parade +
My friends left me and I was like, no I'll stay; I'll be fine... I left two minutes later.
I was separated from my friends for the rest of their set. They just kept getting crazier & crazier after that.
Don't get me wrong, I love those boysss!!! They are sweethearts.
It's just that I only really ever got to talk to them personally at one show... that show being the ATL/Mayday show.

Four minutes left in the Academic Recovery (aka my advisory) period...
THEN SCHOOL'S OVER!!!
for the day :\
damn.

EVERY AVENUE ON FRIDAY!
CARTEL/THIS PROV ON SUNDAY!
I could not be more ecstatic !!!!!!

pce.
STAYBRuTAL&SHINEoN

stars!

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 20:11:11 GMT

New album out now! "Ups & Downsizing" ! Check it out nowww!
http://itunes.apple.com/WebObjects/MZStore.woa/wa/viewAlbum?id=330867098&s=143441

konstantine...

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 13:06:28 GMT

I read a whole ATL fan fiction last night... it was intense. About 45 chapters.
Thank you, Buddy4u!
you will always be my konstantine. -something corporate.
I didn't know about that song until I read that particular fan fiction.
It's beautiful, I need it on my iPod...

I'm in Study Hall 2.
I should be reading... or studying for my properties of water test in Bio next set...
I have double bio today. How sucky is that???
THE CARTEL RECORD COMES OUT TODAY! What a joyy!
I'm gonna check it out right now.
*Pause Konstantine by SoCo*
CARTEL - CYCLES.
My Top Five ( based off the 30 second clips ); It Still Remains, Let's Go, Typical, 27 Steps, The Deep South.
Yeaahhh, bitch.
*Play Konstantine by SoCo*
There's still 5 mintues left in the song. It's beautiful, I wish I heard it sooner, I feel so left out ahah.

So I was talking to the FBR street team guy yesterday and I felt stupid, not only because it seemed as though I was asking stupid questions but also because the dickhead was talking to me like I was mentally ill. He was like: Are you signing into FBR? No, I'm signing on to my email. What in the world did he THINK I was signing on to?? And he was like, there's examples here.. No shit, but that didn't really answer my question. I had already seen the examples by the time he told me that. I just gave up. He was acting like I didn't know anything. He was also talking to me like I was a bother. Like really, I'm sorry that I ask questions like normal people should? I'm not BORN knowing what to do on a street team and plus it's nothing like the GK or Fearless Records street teams, those are so much more straightforward. And if I have a question on Fearless, as stupid as I sound, I email the leader and she HELPS me in a NICE way. Jesus.

My Konstantiiiiineeeee.
I don't feel like reading or studyingg ladeedah.
I have no chorus today :( Nor Spanish.
I only like Spanish cause there are attractive men in that class.
I was on Omegle yesterday and someone told me they were batman so I was like
NO WAY, I'M ROBIN.
And I left after They told me to bring batgirl to their room... lol.
I'm normal.
Then someone said:
I have a lot of friends, do you?
My response:
No I have none, everybody hates me fml.
She thought I was kidding. Well I was, but you know..
I have too much shit to pass out from stupid FBR.
Two sets of Paramore stickers and ARTTM stickers.
VersaEmerge, ARTTM & The Swellers post cards... It's too much.
Plus, this Friday I have to bring so much shit to the show as it is.
I have to put these notes on cars (50 copies)
I have to have at least 20 signatures on the email/mobile mob list.
I have to pass out stickers & put up 5 posters..
This will be a challenge. Thank god Katie will be there to help!
I have 69% on my battery again, aahahahhaha ;)
I'm playing Konstantine on repeat since PLAYLIST.COM doesn't have a repeat button, they really should get on that jawn.
Don't you think that MARKY GK should design some Glamour Kills Rainboots??? I would hit that shit uppp.
WOO NOW I HAVE KONSTANTINE ON MY iTUNES. You jel, you jel.

This is for my friends at GK:

you know you want it. A collab with GABE SAPORTA??! LYYYKEE ZOMFGGGG FEREEALLZ.
Naw but really, it's hawt, check it out.

Well I'm gonna study a lil bit before the period ends.. 20 mintues :-O

-staybrUtal&shineOn

it's not over...

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 13:18:13 GMT

Yes I am listening to Daughtry. Imma BAMF freal. You jel, you jel :P

I be in la clase de Informacion technologico. I really don't know if that's how you say Information Technology or not...
Whatever, it's close enough & you know what I'm talking about.

Now I'm listening to This Condition. Those guys are sooo nice.
I saw them in this one room venue where the whole floor was their stage and I loved it.
When I went to Warped we were actually greeted by one of their members trying to get us to buy his CD,
then we told him how we saw them last time they came round, and at Bamboozle when I watched them warm up.

Bamboozle was so fucking sick & I can't wait for next year, getting in early.
I'm gonig to try to stay the night before at my friend's house since she lives closer than I do and we might go together.
Last year I was an hour late, I was supposed to be at the vender's gate by like 8, but I didn't get there til round 9.
Alex Lopez was my friend at bamboozle, ahahahaa :) He's in a band called Misdelphia, they are my favorite, GO LISTEN!

My birthday was last Wednesday. Not the best day... but it wasnt bad either.
I mean come on! School started two hours late! I was walking through the doors at 10:15! I loved it.
And I got to eat at Felini's (our waiter was hot)
I got money and my iTouch too. Fun fun fun :D
David got me a GlamourKills bracelet that says 'LOVER' with a gk pig.
I love my best friend. ( not like that, but you get it )

Breathe Carolina makes my life. Ok, maybe not, but they are a FEARLESS band. So this means you MUST listen to them. I recommend; diamonds or take me to infinity.
I should make a journal entry about Fearless bands and what songs I recommend. Not that anyone is reading it ;)
I like making lists and wasting time, so It wil be fun for me !!!

The girl next to me, Kanda, she's my friend haha. But she's reading these anime comics on her laptop. Pretty badass.
I've only ever gotten into one anime show, FRUITS BASKET. Best show, go look that jawn up. Its wonderfun ;D wow I didn't even mean to say that word. I be so cool, damn I'm jealous of my sellin. That makes no sense freal, it just sounded cool .

No Bio or Englsh today. A days are my favorite, freal.
Conor Oberst is the man.
There's about 19 minutes left in this set.
I told you how long we got, all the time in the world, I've got a thing for you, you've got a thing for me. - metronomy.
and so he confessed it to her; he had fallen in love. -forgive durden. genesis is a great song, i'm lovin it, badabababah.
Anyone like Eye Alaska? FEARLESS. Whoa no, I have to save that shit for my list of bands/songs from Fearlesss <3
I was on Therefore I Am's twitter the night of warped. Those dudes were so chill. The only reason I'm mentioning this is because I just listened to their song...
I have 69% of battery left on my laptop...
Billy Talent's got talent! Nah but really, why are Canadian bands and singers so wonderful?
I saw Billy Talent by accident at Bamboozle. I had the best time I've ever had, freal. Then the Maine came on and I was like WTF GET ME OUT OF HERE THESE TEENIES SUCK. I couldn't get out, and I was stuck for the whole set ( by myself too since my friend crowdsurfed her way out, believe me, I tried to but there wasnt enough room to get up )
fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves on the ground. -billy talent.
I do love the Maine though. They are sweet kids. I just never get to talk to them anymore :(
I have the same nose as Pat Kirch, but his is bigger.
The Kooks are hot, and British. Damn. British bands are so hot, I dont care what they look like.
It's like "I'm always wheeeehh I neeed tooh beeee...it's alll righttt mr. makehh...you cahn have it awwl & wrap eit in theh wohhld..." SWOOOOOOONNNN. Sexy men. Arctic Monkeys & You Me At Six do that for me too. The accent is just so sexy like freal. I can't help myself. I love Brits. I love This Providence too ( Dan Young is an Austrailian. I call him Austrailian Sex ) .
This girl at EXPLO in my living group, her name was Olivia but we had another Olivia so she was BRITISH OLIVIA since she was from the UK. She loves blueberries and knitting. She was so cute with her short bouncy/curly hair and glasses. She was annoying but funny.
I love Skins. Anyone ever see that show? I am so lost in the new season. I need to start watching it again...

9 minutes left in the set.
I just wasted 10 minutes talking about things that people will never see hahaha.
This LiveJournal thing is a great release for me, It helps me cope with all the shit...sort of?
Idk. Shine On by The Kooks will have to be my exiting song, since it's playing right now & I don't want to be writing til the last minute :D

-stay brutal & shine on ;)

and suddenly...

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 12:19:30 GMT

I have to keep writing to keep my mind off everything.
I really dont want to be here now. I'd give everything to be lying in my bed under my warm comforter, sleeping or even just lying there, I wouldn't mind that either.

I miss my EXPLO friends (aka Renata & Aisling). I love how my two best friends from that place have the most abnormal names.
I've never met or heard of anyone with those names, but I love those two all the same.
We are trying to plan a time to hang out. It won't be extremely tough since I live in Philly, LingLing lives in NJ and Rennie lives in MA.
We will find a time sometime.

My favorite part about high school? Being able to listen to music in study halls and in the hall itself.
Someone please tell me why Joe K ISN'T the lead singer of Artist Vs Poet. Not that I don't love Tarcy, it's just a thought.
Speaking of AVP, you should go listen to them... FEARLESS RECORDS, ya know? and you might as well listen to THE FOLLOW THROUGH (Joe K from AVP's side project thing) and you tell me who the better singer is, por favor?
I have Spanish today and now I'm listening to The Summer Set's cover of Love in This Club, life's good.
Or not. That was a joke, get it? Life sucks.
Shawty. I love how when bands do covers of rap/r&b songs they say Shorty. NO, it's SHAWTY.
Funny.
Did I tell you about the hot guy I met? He's cute, but apparently a dick? Whatever, it's just good eye candy.
I want to make love in this club. Get it? Talk shit, get hit, skank.
I yelled at my other friend last night as well.
She said some shit about me and my other friends on facebook and I flippppedddd.
I was like Shut your fucking mouth you stupid two faced slut. I've been feeling kind of mean lately.
Annaaaabelllllle. Did you know about that Rocket to the Moon photo hunt? I found them all, but I didn't win, goddamn. The pictures are so pretty though. Like ARTTM's new album cover, it's so sick that like I just like looking at it on my ipod ahahah. The CD itself is not so bad either.
I hope I get to go to The Maine/Valencia/ARTTM/VE show on Nov 22nd. That's gonna be aweeesomeee.
Kid Cudi, Kanye West & Lil Wayne are my favorite rappers. Everyone's like Kanye is a dick and whatever.
I don't give a rat's ass, the man has talent & I dont give a shit about Taylor Swift.
The only song I like is Love Story & White Horse. I dont even like her version of White Horse even though it's HER song.
Stephen Jerzak does it better. He's also better than Metro Station when it comes to 'Kelsey'
Actually yeah because Metro Gaytion sucks. They sing about someone being inside them.
I have Info Tech next so maybe there will be some more of this random talk, I'm liking it. :)

life of the party.

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 11:56:34 GMT

Study Hall 1, listening to announcements.
These announcements are always so unimportant to me.
All they talk about is sports and what college advisors are coming that day.

My previous post, the one about being sick of the scene...
It's even louder this time. I am like close to throwing up it's pissing me off so much.

My friends will be the death of me, I'm swearing it.
We lost the base of our friendship and now the whole group is falling apart.
AJS is hanging out with these boys who go to an all boys school, we barely see her anymore.
RRDSS is a totally different person and always off with this one girl that I dislike.
And the supposed base of our friendship, JBS goes to a completely different school entirely.
I truly believe, now more than ever, that JBS was the foundation of our friendship, the band that held us together.
Ever since she came in the picture and tore him away from us she is the reason he isnt with us in the halls or after school.
All of the drama going on with my friends can be traced back to her. I am disgusted.
And the funny thing, they aren't even really close anymore, I never see them hanging out anymore and that disgusts me even more.

I'm finally being honest with everyone.
I flipped at RRDSS because she ditched me one too many times for this girl I don't like.
I told AJS and DMM my feelings about their past relationship and how I think it should stay in the past, since it caused a lot of shit.
I told the girl I dislike why I didn't like her and couldnt hang out with her. Hey, she asked, I obliged and told her how it goes down.
It makes me feel so much better knowing that it's out in the open. It felt so good saying those things, finally sticking up for what I believe in.

I need to make new friends so badly it isn't even funny. I'm in a state of desperation here, I dont care what it takes, I will find new friends.
And when I say 'new friends' it isn't even saying just guys, I want new friends that are girls as well. I want to move away so badly,
however I know that the only place I can move to is Maine and I really am not ready for that yet.
Like really, there aren't any good shows there. Nicer people but no concerts :(
However I saw a really hot band when I was there.. and like they were hot... and so were their friends. Damn, I wish I went to high school there sort of..
Except for the part where none of my favorite bands go there. Moving there would be a lose-win situation.

There was this guy in school where the whole first month or so of school he would just like watch me. It wasn't in a creepy way, it was just like... staring, you know? He's in my joint gym class and one of my study halls, he's a year older. I kept it to myself for a while but then two weeks ago or so he was sitting on the bus that was sitting next to mine and while I was talking to my friends, I would look over and see him watching me, again. Then I told KGG and RRDSS about him and his staring. Then in gym the next week, he didn't stare at me at all, nor in study hall. He hasn't really stared since before I told two of my friends. That sort of thing always happens to me. As soon as I tell someone, it stops, whether I want it to or not. And it's not like my friends know anyone who would tell him what I said or whatever, you know? I dont know, I don't feel like dealing with all of this shit.

I am so sick of everything in this goddamned scene.
I truly need a break from this disgusting routine.

note to self.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 03:28:18 GMT

& I'm so ~~fucking~~ sick of this scene.
I need a fucking break from routine.

I need new friends.

study hall 3

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 14:01:02 GMT

Different study hall today.
I have three study halls. All with different teachers, but some of the same kids.

My failed attempt to get that kid to like me... didn't turn out so well.
He turned out to be really conceited and I gave up.
Now, I like the guy I started liking.. and I can't stand it.
I'm so angry that I like him. I don't want to like him, because we went through this before and he's my best friend.
I don't want it to be like this. I have A lunch with him next, which is great because he's my only friend in that lunch.
Whatever, I'll just have to get over him.

This weekend, I'm going to a free acoustic show at this coffee shop... This Century is going to play! I am so excited to finally see them.
That is the first of 4 shows that I am going to this month.
October 23rd- EVERY AVENUE is coming to the Trocadero, check it out, kidsss.
October 25th, Cartel is playing with The Summer Set, This Providence and The Bigger Lights! Get pumped!!
HALLOWEEN, ESCAPE THE FATE, MAJOR WIN. I'm so fucking excited for this one you have no idea.

I neeeeed sleep. I dont want to be in school today.
My birthday is next Wednesday.
I'm excited. I'm getting a new iPod!

I don't know what else to day. There's so much on my mind...

study hall 2

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 11:29:01 GMT

I'm in study hall again, this time it's different.
Different teacher, different room, different people.
I still don't like school much. Or at all.
I've been getting disappointed a lot lately, I realized.

This summer, guy after guy I liked.
How many of them liked me back?
One. And that was before school ended and after I had stopped liking him.
Besides him I only remember liking three other guys.

One who is now my best friend, and going out with my other best friend (the one I'm often jealous of)
Another who seemed really nice until he said some really asshole things about me and my friends.
And the one I';m currently infatuated with who goes to a private school and... There's so much I can say about him.
He's hilarious and is constantly making me laugh. He is absolutely adorable, in the dorky sort of way, even though he isnt a nerd.
He kind of reminds me of Napoleon Dynamite hahaha. Just thinking about him makes me smile.
But as far as I know, right now, he doesn't think of me like that. Whatever.
I'm gonna make him want to think of me like that. I will. This time, I will.

I'm out.

study hall

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 14:37:25 GMT

I'm sitting in Study Hall right now.
Yep. High School. Day 3.
I'm so overwhelmed.
I have a 2 part quiz in Spanish. The first part was today.
& A presentation.
Also, I have an English Reflection due.
I am having some trouble concentrating.
I want something to be wrong with me so badly.

History is boring. (aka African/Asian Studies)
& so is Biology. The teacher is either gay or from the south (maybe both).

And to top it all off, this kid died yesterday. They announced it in our Advisories at the end of the day.
I didnt recognize the name, but once I went home (there were already memorial groups on facebook) and I saw him, I remembered.
I cried for a half hour, not only because of the death of a peer, but for everything else too. I am stressed beyond repair and it's only Freshman year....

Study Hall's over.

this is not about me

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 23:17:55 GMT

She's stuck inside this world of hate
Summer air humming around her
Pools of fears quickly surrounding
She gave them her all
It lead to her fall
Pool of fears, turned into tears
And she missed the light
As it flew right by her
Her thoughts asphyxiating
Slowly decaying
Her soul colides
With the darkness of the air
As they said their goodbyes...

this was written about my new found friend.
It's lovely, aint it?

Writer's Block: Two Truths and a Lie

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 22:58:54 GMT

Post two truths and a lie about yourself as an answer to Writer's Block. Have people guess which is the lie in the comments.

View 533 Answers

1. I live in Pennsylvania
2. I have a house in Maine
3. Strawberries are disgusting

TWLOHA

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 11:47:28 GMT

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weightless

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 02:31:54 GMT

I cannot remember the last time I did something alone without any help.
Seriously, my mom has to order for me at fucking restaurants because I'm too goddamn shy.
I really need to overcome that.
I have no idea how.

All I know is that I'm wasting my life basically hiding myself from everyone.
I dont know how to start a conversation. You can tell me how all you want, it will go in one ear and out the other.
I'm hoping to overcome this this year. I need some confidence boosting, that's all, I think.
This song definines my life. I'm being serious, it really does.

Manage me
I'm a mess
Turn a page
I'm a book half-unread
I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with
Just because
I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough

But I'm stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick-me-up
And I'm over getting older
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
And I'm over getting old

And maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching
While the minutes pass
As I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy
I don't wanna waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress
That every word by design
Turns a head
I wanna feel reckless
Wanna live it up just because
I wanna feel weightless
'Cause that would be enough

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
And I'm over getting old

And maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching
While the minutes pass
As I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy
I don't wanna waste another minute here

This could be all I've waited for
And this could be everything
I don't wanna dream anymore.

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy
I'm stuck in here

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching
While the minutes pass
As I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy
I don't wanna waste another minute here.

no way out

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 20:19:04 GMT

I got the new This Providence CD in the mail on Friday :D
It came with a signed card thing (i got #160/500!)
and a tshirt!
It's such a great fcukin CD!
It comes out in stores and online tomorrow!!!!!!! Be SURE you get it!

AND I am officially going to both days of Bamboozle! So stoked!
Bamboozle is the weekend after the AP tour & Artery so it's like crazy.
The most concerts I've ever been to in a week hahaha (:

pce.

kids in love

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 19:55:38 GMT

stay fucking brutal.

sand in your shoes

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:38:27 GMT

I am so confused.

I was supposed to hang out with the guy I like and my friends today.
My friends and I were hanging out and I was texting this guy. I never get to hang out with him because every other weekend he goes to his dad's in NJ and when he is here he doesn't like to hang out much. So I was excited!
Then my friend was texting him on my phone because he doesnt have his own phone and yea... so he says "Come to the park- for emma (;' and I got really pissed because I didnt want this guy to know I liked him like that, it would make it totally awkward since both of us are shy enough as it is...

I yelled at my friend like wtff?! and he said "Well, If someone wanted to hang with you and said that he was there, you would want to come wouldnt you? it will only make him come faster "(lol thats what she said, i know) and I didnt understand because this guy that I like does not like me like that, so I said: "But that only works if you like the person," and he said "...well you dont know..." and I'm reallyyyyyyyyy confused about that.
Like he thinks the guy could like me. I told my friend, Katie and she yelled at me like "See! You dont know for sure if he likes you or not,". It's probably mostly the fault of my low-self esteem that i think like that... it's just who I am.

And my friend (who texted the guy) was also saying how it was good because..........well the either day, my friend and I had an argument about guys telling girls who they like or something. because i asked him if he liked so and so and he said "no, but even if i did i wouldnt tell you, guys dont do that," and i said they should.
So he was asked me if i liked that guy and i said yes, and he said, if he asked you would you tell him? i said, probably not. and he said see?..
he said it was good that he texted him that? i dont know... it really didnt make much sense..
help me outt?

I did see the cutecutecute (go ask alice, much?) guy who works at the pharmacy today... he walked by the park :D funnnnnn.

AND Sand in Your Shoes is my new favorite song <3 it's so cute!

Valencia, The Goodnight Anthem, Houston Calls, and You Me and Everyone We Know friday night!

la la land

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 21:36:58 GMT

& i still cant believe demi lovato is playing bamboozle. rofl :D
i like this song; dont make fun!